The bell arrived in my Belgian apartment I had shared with Willy Van Luyten the first week after his death. When we were talking, suddenly we heard an electronic beep. Below is a short excerpt describing some of my struggles with the unusual energy in my apartment after Willy's death: I was bewildered by the energy beginning to permeate the apartment Willy and I had shared—and felt the need to reach out to an old friend, though I had close female friends in a weekly “Inner Landscaping” cours...